i need more time to do these entries...i honestly don't understand how some people have time every night to go online, update xangas and livejournals...etc

i dunno...i guess im feeling stressed but i dunno what about...

fencingis usually the reason, but this season has not been soo terrible...i guess ive given up (finally) the notion that i always have to win, granted its embarrassing to lose 5-0, but on the other hand its nicer to work on stretegy and hopefully put it all together later...

hmm

school?

nope don't think so...workload maybe, but i have to get used to that, cause ive heard that people literally don;t get any sleep in college, cause even though they only ahve like 2 or 3 classes a day, its a lot of work. and a lot of papers...fun!

ha i was just thinking about this thing i had to do in seventh grade, it was right in the middle of a bunch of projects i had toi do...(7th grade sucked...i hated my history teacher-heidi what was her name?) ok so she had us do these letters to ourselves and hand them into her for her to send to us 10 years later. They were supposed to be reflective, for us to talk about our friends, school., life, hobbies, activities, feelings, wtvr...

i dont remember much of what i wrote in it, but i do remember it was also due the same day as one of her neverending stream of projects, and so i basically wrote about how much a iahte her and how stressed out i was...

well its been...4 years?

wow

and i lot has actually changed, i wish i had actually spent time on it, cause i think it would be really interesting to see what i was like and actually thinking about at that age, so immature and naive...

changes:

aaahhhh! got it...Ms. Giasi..!

sry, ok.

changes:

umm friends: not much...i think, alex, manda, julie

i wanted to be friends with heidi cause she was in my history class, and she was cool, and we were the smartest in the class and always won the silly games we played as a team, but that didn't happen until, like freshmen year (?) weren't we in art club together too?? or am i making this up?

caity...unfortunately we don't talk as much anymore, and we don't have dance together anymore, but thats ok, cause when we do get together...its like nothing changed, and we can quote friends like no other...

not friends with steph anymore..hmm

cece...we're not really close anymore

those were my close friends...i think, thats a long time ago

made new ones...blah

outlook:

wanted to be old so badly...and weirdly hung up, (like everyone else from mms ) on popularity...i wasn't popular, but i def wasn't a loser, i don't know why it was such a big deal, but i guess when people start getting cliquey and people start dating in 5th grade, things are bound to be like that..

i wanted a boyfriend really badly... (boyfriend=popular.....thats what we believed...it was silly)

become more open...i guess....i used to (believe it or not) be more quiet than i am now...still not quieter then alex...but quiet...we used to tell ourselves everyyear, INC THIS YEAR..haha that we're going to become more outgoing and therefore have more friends, but it never works..i dunno why. maybe we're just naturally quiet people...

than again, its always the quiet ones who are morefun!

im bored of this

its been cool

these past years

high school is way more fun

Melissa

so i decided to have people fill out this nice little survey about me...compliments of a million people's xangas (stolen specifically from manda's)

have fun...and be honest, cause they're fun to read!

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:
I cried:
I asked you to help:
I was becoming suicidal:
I killed myself:
I died from natural causes:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I started smoking:
I stole something:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
I got in a fight and you were there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
Personality:
Eyes:
Face:
Hair:
Clothes:
Voice:
Humor:
Choice of music:
Manerisms:
Family:

:WOULD YOU:
Be my friend:
Tell me the truth no matter what:
Lie to make me feel better:
Spread rumors about me:
Keep a secret if I told you one:
Loan me some cash:
Hold my hand:
Take a bullet for me:
Keep in touch:
Try and solve my problems:

OTHER JUNK
What's my full name?:
What's your name?:
When is my birthday?:
Soooo do you think I'm hot?:
What's my best feature?:

What's my worst feature? come on be honest!:
Do you love me?:
How long have we known eachother?:
Do you hope to know me longer

What was your first impression of me?:
What do I love?:
Who is my favorite band(s) or singer(s)):
Have you ever had a crush on me?:
What's a phrase that I say alot?:
What do I say/do that annoys you?:
Any suggestions of something I should change?:
If you could give me a nickname, what would it be?:
Are you going to put this on your xanga?:

Super!

anyways i need something to do tonight...somebody call me so i don't look like a loser sitting at home...

(which i won't be)

(cause im not even if i were to sit at home)

:)

Melissa

ooo and if anybody has pictures of...us....i guess send them to me cause i need a better one for my xanga, nothing else matched...

MERRY CHRISTMAS (and happy...other holidays)!!!!!

hmm so santa was nice to me this year, i got a couple of movies, and a bunch of pretty scarves, and books, and an ipod mini, and cds, and clothes, and gloves.....

i love x mas

then my cousins came around 11 on x mas, and we hung out most of the day. then cooked dinner, then my cousin (who has her license) and i went out for a drive around maplewood and s.o. , it was fun

then today we went into the city to walk around a lot, rockerfeller center was pretty

umm what else...not much

except that we took mad amounts of pictures, so im gonna get them from her and show everyone

i hope she visits more now that she can drive....cause that would be fun!

haha

~Melissa